22.12.2025

Life Update

Hi, Hello!

I have completely disappeared from here for a little while oops. I went back to school, again...for like the fifth?? time in my life... So yeah I've been a bit busy with classes and assignements.But since I'm on winter break I finally have some time to give a little update. I couldn't find somewhere to do my apprenticeship so I had to sign up for online classes. Most of my classemates are in the same situation, but at least I don't have to take the train every morning anymore lol. Unfortunately with classes i can't really have a job anymore and now money has become an issue. Thankfully my familly is very supportive and they do their best to help me, I have always been so lucky to have them in my life and I hope one day I'll be able to pay them back for the things they do for me.
With Christmas arround the corner I'm getting more anxious, for the past 2 years the hollydays season has lost its magic a little to be honnest. In a time of giving it keeps remainding me how little I can give to the ones I love. And then right after Christmas comes the New Year. As someone who wish to stop time, transitioning to a new year tends to scare me. Often time I feel like life is going too fast for me, the days go by too fast and I fear the future and the days to come. A new year means another 365 days of uncertainty. The beginning of 2026 is already coming with challenges, I'm supposed to have an internship for January and February but unfortunately right now in France it is very difficult to find one. If I can't find one for January I'll have to reschedule it for the summer which means I'll have to shorten my summer job period. Then in April I'll have to travel to Paris for a big book event and of course I still don't know if I'll be able to afford the trip. Basically money is my biggest issue right now which is a bummer because for the first time in my life I really love what I do.

Anyway, Hollydays season might not be festive for everyone but I still hope you're doing okay. Seasonal drepression is already a challenge in itself but at least the Christmas lights are pretty.

I'll see you soon again.

Merry Chistmas.